One More Lost
Death surrounds me like a blanket of black and blue
How many times;
Interesting how it started to happen as soon as I was old enough to determine
what was valuable. meaningful to me.
He was caught by surprise
on the way to pick up his younger brother from the bus stop as he did every day
a noble, brotherly act
and the car came as he cruised down the road on his skateboard
and it was
over
at least it was painless. instant
and I called and called and called
but your phone lay cracked on the pavement
next to your lifeless body
Hers was slow and agonizing
I watched her chapped lips open and close slightly as she pushed for another breath
the morphine silently pumping into her four year old body
as the nurse continued to drain fluids from her stomach
she couldn't take any more
and I prayed and prayed
Lord, there has to be a way
for her to stay.
Now grandpa
I f*cking told you to stop, didn't I
since I was three I'd climb onto your lap and pull the smoldering roll of decease from your lips
and grandma and I would go outside in the rain and throw your packs in puddles so you
couldn't light them
at 12 i started to worry, telling you
you had to see me walk down the aisle and
hold your first grandchild like you held me
and now the doctors are telling you
you won't even live to see my graduation,
now you regret it, don't you
but you knew it for 18 years, didn't you
you've known it all along, haven't you
When death comes and takes one more
I remember why people only see half of me
on a good day
I am afraid.
Get too close and you'll be hurt when they're gone. they always leave
they always leave and you're left wondering why
and why you opened up to them in the first place
People know me. They know part of me, they do.
It's not that you won't ever know me. You may get to know me very well
but on the other side, something else is waiting
to take you away from me.