"I can’t do homework.
Now, you probably think I’m wrong, right?
You want to make right this wrong in my mind that makes me say… “can’t”.
Can’t do this
Can’t do that
It’s not an open mindset,
you think that I’m wrong but I will bet
that I am right.
Now, you’re probably a bit more open to my argument, aren’t you?
You want to figure out and argue the points at hand and figure out why I still say.. “can’t”
Can’t write this
Can’t write that
It’s not the way you want me to think,
you think that you can make the connection, the link,
that will get me to stop saying “can’t”
I appreciate your effort.
I appreciate the fact you don’t just kick me to the dirt
and tell me “If you don’t do the work, you fail”
Failure is not an option for me
but in time, if not already, you will see
that I want to succeed.
I want to do well
I want to do the work
But I’m stuck in this hell
an endless void of pain and hurt.
The only escape that I’ve found
is writing these profound
words on a page
hoping to say them out of this trap, this cage,
Someday hoping to share this,
this sense of hopelessness,
hoping that this pain will end,
ending up free,
freedom is the only option,
options are one,
one option left,
untouchable by those who struggle,
struggling through the pain,
pain ridden to days end,
ending up free someday.
You make think I’m wasting
all of my time writing
but it’s the only way to express
all the ways that I’m feeling.
I only think rhythmically
trying to find a pattern in everything
and everything without a pattern
is a waste to me.
I’m trying, I swear,
to get somewhere
with this work I’m assigned
but it’s killing my mind.
I’m sorry this is tough
but it’s tougher for me than it is for you
This isn’t just a simple flu
but an illness, a disease
that’s tugging at my brain
screaming, crying, to please
Stopping is not an option,
so I will keep going,
But I can only take one action
and right now it’s keeping these words flowing.
But if this stops working
I will shut down,
for this is all I have left,
and if this stops, I drown.