Im not myself

Outer body experieces contine to plague me

Feeling like I'm on the outside 

Looking into my OWN life

This isnt me

I use to be free

Coming and going as I please

Taking care of my mental stability 

But as my mind starts to unravel

Negative thoughts flood my mental 

I'm spiraling

I'm drinking every fallacious thought

I'm inhaling synthetic people

I'm sleeping with every bad decision

I'm shooting up detrimental situations

To stimulate me

To keep me going

To make me feel.... Alive

Yet

I'm still broken

My shattered shards scattered

Begging for someone to put me back together 

To make me feel whole again