Pain Assuaged Through Poetry

I try to numb the pain.

The pain of everything and of nothing.

The pain that I cannot put into words

And the pain I try so hard to control

The pain that somehow always seems to find its way out

Through my antidepressants, food binges, agonizing encounters with my own body.

The pain that makes me ache to feel alive again

So achy that I will my body to hurt

So achy that I purposely injure myself

Because that piercing pain allows me to feel.

I cry out silently

Mother!

Boyfriend!

Roommate!

Professor!

I am in pain!

Yet no response is merited.

I realize the voice was just in my head

Because I am still trying to mask the pain

That reverberating ache

Inside my mind

Tearing, pounding, endlessly.

At least these words help release some of the pain.

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world
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Comments

Grant-Grey Porter Hawk Guda

Powerful expression. Always let poetry fill your life. 

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