Pain Behind Closed Doors

I am hiding in the darkness hoping my breath goes unheard He'll stop when I'm a bloody carcass I dare not speak a word He cut me off from funding He cut me off from friends This hurt is never ending I don't know what I did to offend I live my days pretending That everything is fine That one day I'll be fending On my own and free from his crime One day I may just run Disappear from this prison He'll be finished with his fun His fists will not be there to cause me anymore pain ***** Laying on the floor I stare up through the haze I can't take this anymore Your eyes burn me with their gaze I get back up again You force me right back down More than my heart is broken I wish I could sink into the ground I know that I should leave Just run away from this hate But they simply do not believe that I could be a victim of this fate "How is it even possible?" "Why don't you just fight back?" "What's your problem?" they all ask me "You're the man, you're stronger... "It's just a woman, she's not hostile!" I try to seek some respite I try to go for help But no one will believe that a man could fall beneath a female abuser's might. For those out there in pain trapped in your own homes Hope can indeed be out there that you do not hurt in vain Not everyone is careless there are those of us who try to bring help every October (and all year round) for Domestic Violence Awareness October is widely known as Breast Cancer Awareness Month. But it is also, equally important, Domestic Violence Awareness Month. This gets ignored all to much, like many spousal abuse victims of both genders. Many women suffer needless abuse at the hands of their partners, as well as men. Men are not always the aggressors, but no matter the gender of the victim, abuse never stops on it's own. If you know someone who has been a victim of spousal abuse, or if you are a victim, or recovering from, spousal abuse, the Domestic Violence Intervention Center's website is dvinterventioncenter.org. and the National Domestic Violence Hotline is 1-800-799-SAFE (7233).