The shame in her avoiding eyes

She cannot meet my gaze

It’s she who brought this on us

But I’m the one that pays

I glare at my reflection

Disgusted by the sight

But in this war, I’ve lost the will

To try to win the fight

She laughs but we are empty

The sound is bleak and cruel

I replace the mask I wear

Pretend I’m not the fool

Show them all the actress

She’s charismatic, tough

A leader, much at ease with life

For to her, this life’s enough

I tell them all that I’ve got plans

I’ll be something someday

They eat it up, believe the lies

They all believe I’ll stay

It’s something they will never get

They’ll never realize

They can’t see the real threats’

The one behind my eyes

I can’t seem to bring myself

To care enough to try

This sickness may be killing me

But I would love to die

I have no feeling left inside

I don’t have any dreams

There’s nowhere left for me to hide

I’m fraying at the seams

I can’t show them who I am

The beast inside my head

She knows that I don’t give a damn

Though she’ll fight to be fed

I know that I am broken

This truth was always mine

Why do you fight to keep me here

When all I’ve left is time…