A little girl fighting to get attention

Mom and dad are fighting again and she feels like she has to step in

She steps in and it only makes it worse 

Dad shoves mom into the wall calls her a whore and a bitch

No one notices the little girl who is crying begging them to stop

A few years down the road Mom and dad still don't get along

Mom tells the little girl that its time for dad to go

The little girl is confused and upset she calls her dad a bastard thinking it was his fault

The dad proceeds to pin her up against the car and hits her 

The little girl is scared and so confused she doesn't know what is happening

Is not her fault

Mom forces her to chose a side and tears her away by telling all these lies

Mom gets a new boyfriend and the girl is still confused

She asks mom why can it not just be us for a while

A few years later this girl turns into a teenager

Mom has no idea what is happening 

In a dark room while watching a movie moms boyfriend

Becomes this monster while he is drunk

She sees her opportunity to escape when he gets up to go to the bathroom

She goes and tells him she is going to her room

She runs into her room and locks the door

Couldn't stop crying till she finally fell asleep

She thinks all these thoughts and wishes them to stop

Till one day she gets introduced to a new life that she doesn't realize she will have to fight

She starts by sneaking out with friends and realizes the high feels so good she must do it again

It takes her away from everything she is feeling and she thinks to herself this is what I've been searching for

A few years down later Mom questions her and threatens to send her away 

The girl denies that anything is going on

She thinks to herself I have too much to lose but I just can't stop 

An athlete ready to go to college she gets into a fight

Mom decides enough is enough and tells her to get out

The girl takes off with her boyfriend and doesn't look back

They live a life of partying and they think they are alright

They move up to Maryland and think life will be fine

To only find out things are worse then what they thought

After fighting for so long the girl decides to leave

She goes to rehab and this is where she is finally free

She gets out and she does good

Then one day she just stops and goes back to that old lifestyle

She runs the streets for a little bit not realizing she is about to die

 Wants to get out but feels she can't live without

She decides to move because that will change it all

She has everything in front of her but the fucks it up

She walks away from everything she cared about 

Threw it all away for that one night to have fun

She gets told you are messing with your life and you are taking a huge risk

She gets asked do you really want to lose your life

She responds to that question that she doesn't care

Not realizing how many people she is hurting 

She goes out for just that one last time

Gets left for dead by the people she thought were her friends

Wakes up and realizes she wants to do it all over again

She continues to go on with the life that she chose 

While the ones who care the most 

decide to not watch her kill herself

After a while, she goes back to rehab kicking and screaming

Not wanting to walk away from her one true love

Sober now she is trying to figure out how to navigate a life without drugs

She knows she can do it she has been there before

But trying to deal with the past is sometimes too big of a task

She has been slowly learning how to cope

She realizes she is not ok with herself

So she fights daily to try to get to that place

A place she once knew where she had happiness

She knows that as long as she is in recovery she can have that 

Trying to fight her demons daily

Just so she can stay sober

It is a daily struggle and there are days she wants to go back

But she realizes that's the life she has always chosen

Wanting something different for her life 

She travels to a city that she falls in love with and finally realizes that this is what her life could be

Still trying to find herself she gets closer every day

She has goals for her life that she never had before

She knows she has a long way to go to be ok with herself

But now she can actually see her life being alright

She has learned not to entertain the thoughts

Even though that's a daily struggle

At a spot now where her life can go one way or another

she only tries to see the positive 

She sets out to start her goals 

She doesn't look back

The life she has now is better then the life that she had