With the filter on, 

it's clear to me, 

I'm a good student.

A good employee.

A good daughter.

A good girlfriend.

A good girl.

Such a draining role!

I'm not quite sure what's beneath these filters.

Perhaps the filter has left a permaenent film on the girl I once was,

Forever altered by life experiences. 

Or maybe I just haven't quite figured out who the adult Amanda really is.

Clinging to girlhood when adulthood has been knocking on this closet door for years now.

I guess beneath the filter I'm scared of the future and the attached responsibilities.

Fearful I will not be able to become everything I told myslef I would become.