Play Pretend
Sitting alone
you start to wonder what happened
having those 'what if' thoughts
what if you would have pretended to be okay
would you still be where you are
would you even be able to live with all the pain
no you wouldn't have
because pretending only leads to misery
but you end up feeling the same even when your truly honest with yourself
but if we are going to be forced to live through our lives facing even the smallest of pains
then why not
why not pretend everythings alright
why not pretend to be happy
it would be simple right
just smile and laugh
and make them think your just fine
no one has to know how you really feel on the inside
they don't have to know about the regrets that you make
or the lies that you speak
or even the secrets that are killing you to keep
they can live their whole lives without knowing
but can you live yours knowing that you kept it from them
knowing that it's killing you inside to pretend
come just face face it
no one is really ever happy
something will always be wrong
some people are just better at pretending than others
better at putting on a mask to hide their true feelings
to hide from it all
but you, you are an expert
you never stop smiling your always happy
nothing can hurt you
and its almost impossible not to believe that you are perfect
until someone looks into your eyes
until they look past all that fakeness
and see the real you
the you thats falling to peices
dying on the inside trying to pretend
but you can't
you can't keep lying to yourself
and isn't that all pretending is
just another lie
except this time you are only fooling yourself
and you can't do it, not anymore
it's just taking to much
you can't handle it
you've tried and lying to yourself just isn't working anymore
pretend time is over
-h.l