Today is the 3rd year, of not seeing her in person.

Today is the 1,095^th day, with her not really here.

Today is the last day, she physically threatened me.

Today is the day, when she got caught for it all.

Today is the day, when I told the full story.

Today is the day, when I thought I would fall.

Today is the day, when it wanted to end.

But…

It hasn’t.

And I don’t know when it will.

People keep saying, “just get passed it” and “move on”.

But they don’t understand.

They don’t know what I went through, and what my parents had to go through…

To get me here today.

Nobody, will ever know… the pain that I endured.

Physically and mentally.

Nobody, will ever understand… my scars, bruises, and cuts…

That she gave to me on purpose.

Nobody…

I don’t thank her for anything, and I never will.

I don’t care about her, or where she’s at today, and I never will.

I don’t care if she struggles, and I never EVER will.

I don’t care if she is sleeps well at night, because I know I don’t.

I mean…

HOW can she even feel comfortable in her own skin!??!?!

After she beat and threatened her own children, for so long??!?!

I don’t care anymore, I just want her gone for good.

But, im not sure if that will ever happen.

I still see her in my dreams, and in the pictures of just me….

I still see her in my shadows and in my head, when im thinking.

She won’t go away, no matter how hard a try.

She is still in my head, and she constantly screams.

She’s always in my thoughts and she’s ALWAYS in my dreams.

She runs from the court and gets away.

I just want my justice and I wanted it yesterday….

But…