Pregnant, Yet No One Cares

Look at me!

Can't you see the roundness of my belly?

The widening of my hips?

The puffiness of my face and the swelling of my feet?

But yet, I know that you can't see

The sorrow of my heart and the hurt of my soul.

 

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

I wish to cry, but am without tears

I wish to be strong, but am without strength

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

My appearance loudly declares the fact of my expectancy

Secretly hides the fact of my conceivancy

This is my first child to be born

My ninth to be conceived

Five abortions, three miscarriages, each with a different man

The others paid for the termination

This one refused to pay

He didn't believe abortions

He had rather the child be alive and fatherless

Than not alive at all

 

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

I wish to cry, but am without tears

I wish to be strong, but without strength

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

I wish to cut myself at every chance

Cannot stop thinking of this child growing inside

As being the key

To set me free

From my bondage of iniquity, these chains of tormentaty

Abortion? Of course.

Got the money? Fat chance!

What's left, besides to take a chance. 

 

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

I wish to cry, but am without tears

I wish to be strong, but am without strength.

Im pregnant, yet no one cares

 

The pain I feel will never be equivalent

To the pain dealt to me from life

PUSH! the doctor said

BREATH! the nurse encouraged

DIE! is what Satan said

Ha! Amongst all that I said, AUGH!

 

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

I wish to cry, but am without tears

I wish to be strong, but am without strength

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

The baby, a girl, lay there, nothing but vulnerable

As I look, I see such beauty

Inside I hear guilty!

Guilty of murder!

I killed my babies before this one came alone

Stares, snores, pointing and name calling greet me on the street

Follow me wherever I go

Welcome me as I come home

Dirty little girl that I have been can input mean one thing for her

I can't let her stay here and grow up in this dump

I'm going to set her free by keeping her away from me

Lay  my sweet child, have no fear

Someone is gonna find ya here and take us to a home

That I cannot provide

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

What else could I have done?

Leaving  in that alley is all I'm capable of

I've got to keep on living

I got myself a pump and trick with every pick

I can't let her be like me

 She meant ever know me

I heard  she has a home

Someone nd her there all alone

Thank God, that she's safe

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

Mom's left me in the alley

Mom's killed my brothers all and sisters too

Mom's thought she loves me

Her love was totally wrong, totally false, so totally lose

Her explanation understandable

Her action inexcusable, undeniable and so not beautiful

I chuckle when I think of what she said

She didn't want me to be like her

Which I am in so many ways

Like now, I'm the one who's pregnant

No one here to care

No tears to be shed

No strength to be drawn

I'm pregnant, yet no one cares

 

 

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