Pure Aplomb
Location
Confidence is not enough to defeat doubt.
The ambiguity I've already faced is
Relentless.
I've tried, as I am, but it is is vain
That my fortitude fights it everyday.
Perplexity casts a heavy shadow over me;
I've also given in to implosion
And failed at that too.
Aplomb in its howling superiority
Would save me from everything.
Fears would dissipate into the air.
The robust force would shock life
Back into my dull soul.
Lionhearted with electricity streaking
In my feeble veins;
I could do it.
I could trust enough to leap
Into love heart first.
So deep, I would never feel the need
To sacrifice my happiness for others.
I'm a doormat for too many,
I realize that.
It's time to brush away Fall's depris
And face myself.
I need this to be everything I can;
Feeling the urge to make impact,
To make something of myself
Other than a distressed sweater on its last leg.
I am ready to live, but fear
Has me chained in a cold prison.
Break me free, I beg of you,
From these paramount restraints.
With this gift,
I will let myself fall in love
With the right man.
I can only hope
That I haven't been too damaged
To see him.
With sovereign aplomb,
I can be whomever I was meant to be.
No more surrendering to the unworthy.