Push. Push.

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. Don't let your feelings get the best of you.

Push. Eat. Drink. Breath. Smile. Smile! The coach and judges don't care how you feel so why should you? Forget it. They don't know why or how you feel so make them. Show them you want to be here. Show the crowd you love what you do. 

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. Push through school work and practice. Push through college applications and deadlines. Push. Push. This is not new so why is it different? The whip of the flags silk when it catches air. The sound the sabre's blade makes as it cuts through the air. Both familiar tunes that you've unintentionally memorized. The crack of your gun and the pain in your fingers get the crowd cheering. Yes more! Smile bigger! Perform harder! 

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. Coach said you have to breath. Are you breathing? No time. No time!  Angry red marks and painful purple bruises adorn your skin like pictures on a wall; each one has it's own story that you keep and retell. You wear them with pride because it's the closest thing to proof of your hard work and effort. Twisted ankles and sore muscles be damned! Grin and bear it. Grin and bear it! Perform! Perform! Quick! Don't forget to breath! Can't crack now. Not now! Don't hold back. Don't hold the team back. Don't hold your team back! Be excited but not frantic. Smile bigger! Perfom harder! 

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. The last feature isnt even close! Why am I so tired? No energy. No energy. Where's the energy? Smile bigger! Perform harder! Look up. Look at me. Look at me! 

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. Ignore the pain in your legs. Ignore the tightness in your chest. Ignore it! Don't drop your G.P.A. Don't drop your gun. Study harder! Toss higher! Don't come undone. Don't crack under pressure! Live in the moment. This is your moment! It's your last chance! Can't forget this feeling. Don't forget this feeling! Anxiety. Pride. Adrenaline. Relentlessness. Excitement. All these emotions make you the performer that you are. 

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath. Can't stop. Don't stop. No break. Don't break. Don't forget why you do this. The end is near! First is only a little closer than an arms reach! Don't give them a reason to give you second. Leave your heart on the floor! It belongs there. Along with the blood, sweat, tears, and laughter. However, don't leave the good memories there. Take them with you on your next journey. Godspeed little performer.

Push. Push. Toss. Catch. Turn. Smile. Point. Breath.

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