Questions/Anxiety

Questions/Anxiety.

 

 

It flows through my veins like venom;

Pouring out like the tears of a waterfall.

Help!

Help me find my answers.

Help me I’m lost.

Can you help me find my way? Out of this maze?

I keep telling myself, “Come what may”

But in my heart I know I’m not sane; I don’t feel like myself.

Help!

Can I ask another question?

More like a statement;

I’m starting to question

While I’m sitting in this lesson

Hands shaking

Voice breaking

Writing messy

Someone help me!

She’s speaking and I’m trying to listen

I’m loosing focus

Too much in my thoughts;

On my mind.

Help me I’m lost.

I close my eyes

Enter a different time frame

Enter in a daydream

I need to breath.

Like a rainbow needs the sun to shine

I need oxygen and more time

I know where I’ve been

But where am I going?

I have questions.

Many can relate to what’s been told

But it’s the same old story and its getting old

I’m starting to get cold, “someone close the window.”

I can’t sit still

I try to clear my mind as I stare out the windowsill.

Hard to figure out what the future will be- like

I just want to be free and let my thoughts take- flight

But we can never be truly free; not you, not me.

Your freedom is my prison

My prison is your freedom.

Society is what puts us in our bubble

To scared to pop it

Too scared to be different

Too many expectations

This is my revelation

Just trying to find my motivation

In a street with no street lights

No Signs

How will I know when to turn left or turn right?

I’m overthinking

Hyperventilating

Hands shaking

Voice breaking

Writing messy

Someone help me!

I’m overanalyzing situations that aren’t situations

My anxiety is getting to me

I can barely breath

The room is spinning.

Why do they want so much from me?

Why can’t I make everyone happy?

Why is my best not good enough?

I’m only trying to succeed.

Its my life, I own the deed.

Though that’s not how I’m feeling

I keep praying

I keep kneeling

No control like a computer short-circuiting

It flows through my veins like venom;

Pouring out like the tears of a waterfall.

Help!

Help me find my answers.

Help me I’m lost.

The venom has reached my brain

Starting to feel insane

So if you feel the way I feel

You’re not alone

I have questions just like you do

I know you have questions of your own

I don’t just want to get by

I want to finish school

Keep reminding yourself to just breath

It will be all over soon

Keep your head high

Don’t let negative vibes bring you down

Surround yourself with positivity and you wont frown

And when every you feel overwhelmed

Just count down

Five. Four. Three. Two…

 

Amber Fernandez

This poem is about: 
Me

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