Regrets Healed Over
At one I slept soundly
Then at two, at three, at four
Five came the BIG MISTAKE
And my rest wasn't restful anymore
Social missteps quickly forgotten
Or so I preferred to believe
But at six, at seven, at eight
The memory from five wouldn't leave
Cruel words born of ignorance
Humiliation at five, six, seven
It couldn't be escaped
Burning less than than at eleven
And so it went year by year
Prickling my conscience here and there
Old and new regrets piling on
'Til I was nearly overcome by despair
How could anyone stand me?
The bile I used to spew
Before I saw it for what it was
Spitting vitriol like it was true
Wallowing in self pity
Holing myself up in my room
Sealing my mouth to prevent new regrets
My surroundings smothered by gloom
I was blessed
I was not alone
I was dragged out of isolation
And given a chance to atone
Therapy once a week
Medication to keep irrationality at bay
The missteps and memories kept coming
But I could see it was okay
The regrets didn't chafe anymore
They were sad, but that's all
I couldn't undo them
But they didn't have me chained to a wall
My childhood mistakes can't be undone
But adult me won't repeat a single one