She looks like
She looks like a cloudy day
She looks like she don’t have nothing to say so she’ll listen
She looks at me like “you miss him”
She looks like she’s got no reason to stay with him
She doesn’t even want him
But she does cuz’ she’ll win
She looks at me like “he doesn’t want you”
She looks at me like “why’d he ever love you”
I bet he never did
She looks at me like who the hell are you but fuck you
You don’t know where I came from
You don’t know how I talk
I don’t care if you don’t expect this voice to come out of this mouth
I’ll be who I wanna be
And who I am
Has never been good enough
So I’m gonna talk with a voice that makes it sound like I never had a choice
So fuck you
She looks like she’s got someone to go home to
And you’re standing
as far away from me as possible
on the exact opposite side of the room
facing the corner
plugging your ears closing your eyes
because you don’t want to see the mess you’ve left
what you don’t know is she’s staring me down
she’s looking at me like “what bitch? I won.”
What she doesn’t know is that he loved me
And you blame me for that?
I’m blaming myself that he left me
And I hope he makes you happy
I hope your little game gets fulfilled and then I hope when you get to the finish line and you have no more moves left
You break
I hope it’s like a slap in the face
I hope
I hope you don’t break him
But you look like you don’t care
You’re just looking at me like
“I got you
I got your life
I’m gonna have his babies
I’m gonna pretend to love him
He’s gonna be with me on those lonely nights
And that’s all I want
Because I am your future
I am hurt
So all I can do is be with someone
Who loves me
And pretend to love them
So I can get revenge for what they did to me
And take it out on someone who didn’t have anything to do with it
And I’m not sorry
Because I won’t be sorry until everyone who’s ever hurt me is sorry”
So I’m looking at you like
I don’t wanna be you
I don’t wanna look like you
I don’t wanna be holding my breath
Playing a game
I don’t wanna have to hide my cards from the man I love
I can’t
So I’m gonna move him
And you don’t have control over me
You have him
But he’s not mine
He’s all yours