dear boy i almost gave everything to,
i am not a glistening bar of solid authentic gold,
i am not a crystal clear 50 karat diamond,
i am not a smooth pearl that shimmers in the sun.
i am a ruby.
full of passion, desire
in its crevices intensity,
on its edges eccentricity,
full of fire and light and all,
all that makes whole.
hard to stay away from,
the epitome of everything,
i crave to be craved.
blood and satan placed
in one, so solid, unbreakable
yet so fragile.
i'd do anything for you in the dark.
chaos, destruction, calamity
wrapped in your cayenne fingertips,
your skin dashed in brown sugar,
your eyes drowned in sweet cinammon,
i tried to take you in strides,
but not all boots were made