Sleep Deprivation

Really good to get,

Consistency,

Wrapped in bed feeling,

Warmly.

 

Slowly drifting off,

Peacefully,

That cosy sensation,

Securely.

 

Difficult time before with my sleep,

Depriving,

Wake up before 4am,

Frustrating.

 

Heart full of horror,

Historically,

Suppressed beneath layers of hurt,

Painfully.

 

Months, years that followed,

Battling,

The huge angst inside of me,

Much anxiety.

 

Sleep was painful, never looked forward to it,

Daunting,

Couldn't quite see things clear,

Darkening.

 

Functioned the best way I could,

Struggling,

Tired & feeling lousy,

Normality.

 

Distrubed sleeping patterns,

Regularly,

Unacle to reach my potential,

Surviving.

 

Can see i've been living my life,

Depressing,

Just one head above Maslow measure of,

Hierachy.

 

Take time to reapir and heal,

Slowly,

Have cut myself off from my own needs,

Neglectfully.

 

Lack of sleep again,

Maddening,

Have to face inner hurt,

Repeatedly. 

 

Sleep coming better to me now,

Thankfully,

Taking steps to move along,

Fully functioning.

 

Starting again, have to do,

Preliminary,

Learn from others, successfull,

Gratefully.

 

Now sleep much better than before,

Happy,

Can begin life all over again,

Lucky me. 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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