The Smallest Insanity
Every time we move away
I leave an old world behind.
And I find a new trail.
A new language.
A new world.
Maybe before, I didn't know enough to care
Or didn't care enough to know
Or didn't realize, didn't figure it out
But as long as the sky's above me, I'll learn.
So I know enough now.
I know that I've left too many old worlds behind
And I want some solid memories.
But there's nothing that I can do
About it.
Things will not happen, but one can dream.
I will be freed from the scattered fragments
Because darkness is everywhere.
And darkness is chaos. Disorder. Insanity.
But I have only a small part in it.
When you are the smallest insanity, darkness, in all its irrationality,
Is beautiful.
I stayed with it,
Hiding my allies the shadows when they could see
Positively chanting their incantations otherwise.
At one point I tried to be like them.
And I found out that it was impossible.
They have too much light for darkness to imitate.
I forgive them, though. They have souls
Just as shady as mine.
I don't know the meaning of pain,
And I hope I never will.
But conformity hurts.
The smallest insanity
Is ever-present.
That was all just another old world.
That is behind me.
We're going now.
I can't hold on to the darkness,
You think,
But darkness is everywhere.
It won't disappear.
Maybe it'll cost me dearly to hold on
And maybe I can't afford it.
But neither can I afford
To
Let
Go.