The Sunday Abuser

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30354
United States
33° 39' 29.0772" N, 84° 23' 8.6784" W
30354
United States
33° 39' 29.0772" N, 84° 23' 8.6784" W
You were my first love
Before I understood what love can do to you
Before I understood what love is
I loved you as a child
And I thought I always would
Everyone told me I should
Everyone told me I should thank you
Be grateful for your presence
Pray that you never leave me
They said I will never find another like you
They said always be the one to apologize
You said you'd always be there for me
So what was any girl supposed to think?
You taught me to shut up and sit down
You taught me that it is always my fault
You taught me to be ashamed of myself
You taught me no one would love me like you
Or so you thought 
I think you have hurt me enough
You with your hypocrisy
I should not have to prove my love for you
I should not be punished for my love
So for once let me teach you a lesson
Say it with me
And maybe you'll realize:
I have always been mine
I don't care what they tell you
This anger is not a phase
My anger is not a phase
I just got tired of being lied to
I want toss out the books
Make you rue the day that you told me that love cannot transcend everything
But I won't 
Because unlike you I don't play God
Because I have finally loved myself
Because I am my own Savior
Because I dare say I'm proud of me
And I dare you to tell me to go to Hell
Do it
You criticize my hair
You scrutinize my clothes
You censor my opinions
You tell me what to think
You control how I talk
You decide who my friends are 
Don't be jealous
That will not prevent me from losing these shackles
That will not prevent me from crucifying your lies
That will not prevent you from raising Hell for me
But I admit I am scared of who I will become without you
Will I be forsaken
Forgotten
And condemned to loneliness
You tell me I am evil without you
You tell me I am damned without you
You tell me it's obvious
But with God as my witness
We are over and done with 
I would rather love me than love someone who will never learn to

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