From when I was conceived, it was constant unrest

Mix of emotions growing on me, depressed.

As I grew up times got tougher,

Moving around, and my parents getting older.

I lived in a place where my childhood was made

My best friend was there, and God's hand was laid

My acceptance of Christ by the age of 7

I was excited to one day be in Heaven.

But thanks to bullies things got tough quick

Pounding my self-esteem down with each lick

Words that cut into my heart like knives

From the parents too blind to see with their eyes

School rapidly worsening, Satan was against me

I was as low as a 5th grader could be.

Physical abuse one way, verbal in the other,

Emotionally unstable, convinced I was the bother.

6th through 9th were the worse of them all,

Leaving God leading to downfall.

One day I was fine with "friends", next thing I know

I'm surrounded by the enemies and now I'm alone

At the edge of my bed, put the gun to my head

Thinking that I should just pull the trigger instead

Lowlife anorexic girl with no more zeal

Till God's slap in the face was real.

Bawling on my knees, I cried out to God

He came back to my heart, and it was no fraud

Though I still may struggle with what the Devil makes me face

I know I am saved, not separated from God's Grace.

Now in 12th, life much better than ever

And I know that it can only get better.

God blessed me with true friends and talents for XA and the best worship band to me

And He will bless you too, just open your heart to see.