Therapy

My mom signed me up for therapy
A church therapy
I had to fill out papers
There was a waiting list
I filled out twice
What I had said mother dint like it
A few questions were
Why do you need therapy
I answered " mom told me I needed it"
Do you have a spouse
I say "I wish"
Mother whited out the answers she didnt like so I can answer then the was she wanted me to
A few months passed
I got a call
Hello miss Cruz you have an appointment at this day at this time
I froze ok I'll be there
I show up
This place is hug
I try to go in
The doors are locked?
Theres a sign says press the button to be let in
Ok? That's new
They let me in and ask who I was
I answer I'm miss Cruz I got a call to come in today
They told me to take a seat
I felt a panic in my chest
I shouldnt be here
I dont need this
I dont want this
Its church therapy
They will preach more then listen
I noticed every door and window has locks
Not just any locks but badge key locks
Like to ask promistion to open anything
The lady comes back
I'm sorry miss Cruz i cant find you in the system
Who called you?
Um I dont know is the person I'm supposed to see in?
I'm sorry miss Cruz but all the therapist are out on spring brake
Theres no one here
....
Like really why keep me here for so long almost an hour
I'm sorry mam I've been trying to call her
I just found you in the system
But all we have is your name did you fill out out papers?
Yea I did twice because i didnt say what my mother thaught was appropriate for therapy
No it wasnt appropriate for church
I sent the papers threw the mail and computer
I have a copy with me now
I'm sorry mam you will be contacted for another appointment
So I leave my number
And try to walk out
Excuse me miss how am I supposed to leave if the doors are locked
Oh I'm sorry you need am ID to get out here let me help you
What kind of therapy chruch needs so many locks especially with IDs
Should you have your doors open for people who need help?
That they can be free to come in and leave as they please?
And as a church I would think you would have everything straighten out?
So I left a few weeks later I get a call
Hello miss Cruz I'm calling to approve our appointment at 3?
Um its 250 and no one called to tell me they rescheduled nor gave me q heads up
Oh were sorry we did send you a text message we know you young kids dont answer the phones these days
....
I answer and this is to get help
Qnd for the record I didnt reseve a txt message
I'm sorry I cant make the appointment
That's ok we can set it up for another day
We just want to make sure you want this
No I don't want this but i have people worried about me
So I'm doing this for them
I've had therapy since i was young
No you dont know what I've been threw but all my life
Every therapist has said what they thought i needed
They hear you out but havent lived your life
So i wont be going in
Cancel everything
Someone else can have my place
God has show me therapy isn't for me
And even if it is its not with your church not to be rude
But I'm moving soon and you cant let everything out in a short period of time
And someone who needs help you cant keep them on hold
Therapy
What can I say

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