Tranqulity

I sit here in solitude, torn apart.

Screaming for help crying lost in my own world.

My mind is racing 100 mph, telling me how horribly disgusting I am. 

"You are a disgrace to our family!" Is repeating rapidly over and over again in my mind.

"You disgust me!" The voices won't stop they just continue.

Finally i have had enough.

The jewelry box is flung open.

Relief.

As the blade is draw across my skin; I finally have relief.

1 cut, 2 cuts, 3 cuts, 4.

As my wrists burn and bleed I lay there in complete and total gratitude. 

My body is drained... I can no longer feel nor think.

I'm calm, relaxed, soothed, still.

Nothing matters any longer. 

No more voices, no more crying, no more screaming, no more stress.

Just complete and total tranquility. 

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