I am living

Yet not really living

I am laughing

But not really laughing

I am seeing

But not truly seeing

I am a monster

Trapped in despair

I am breathing

Yet not wanting to breath

I am walking

But stumbling along the way

My hands reach out to touch you

But I feel nothing

I am a demon

Trapped in this body

I am loving

But not being loved

I am hoping

But wishing for failure

I am smiling

Yet frowning underneath

I am a corpse

Trapped among the living

I am me

But wishing to be someone else

I am here

Yet dreaming of being elsewhere

I am talking

But no one is listening

I am dead inside

Trapped in this useless life