Trenches
I've been digging a hole
Way down deep
Where I can take my feelings
And bury them beneath
They won't be anybody's secret to keep
Because no one will ever know except for me
They all say not to be scared
But I still fill the ditch with my own bare hands
I keep on thinking that no one understands
These feelings inside have become my biggest nightmare
I knew I couldn't tell them so
I dug my emotions further below
I hoped these feelings weren't really my own
But then again, if this was the real me
I wanted to know
I made sure I didn't dig too far
Just in case I finally knew in my heart
Which kind of love I really want
It's hard to find the answer
When it's hiding in the dark
Eventually once it's reached the surface
I'd have to discover its purpose
At first I'd feel nervous
To find out if all my internal struggling was worth it
But maybe nothing will change
I'll continue to cover up the hole each day
I'll ignore feeling my heart being pulled in two different ways
There's no way of knowing if it's only a phase
A few months later, I found the cure
I was asked which side I prefer
The trench I spent so long digging finally burst
My feelings unraveled and I confirmed what they were
That I can love him as much as I love her.