Disorders come and go. 

They waver like the edge of the horizon as you bob up and down in the ocean. 

You only learn about them one minute or they come across through people you know. 

To those that have disorders, they understand because they live it. 

What's scary to those who deal with them are the disorders that play on you emotionally, mentally, and psychologically. 

Those disorders that make you who you are can change and hurt you. 

I live with trichotillomania. 

What is that you say?

Trichotillomania - an impulse-control disorder that localizes in the plucking or pulling of hair on the body 

I live with the fact I can't stop, like a drug addict stuck on their fix or their permanent situation and state of mind. 

What's to change about me?

Not much. 

But I can change how you come across it and how you see it. 

I can make you aware. 

Be aware those with this disorder suffer greatly like many others. 

We cannot change but we can grow from it. 

It can make us insane though. 

It can take a lot out of us and wear us down, like constant blows to our emotions and will to fight. 

So be aware 

Because it's trick-you-till-you-a-maniac.