Understand

Fri, 10/12/2012 - 03:00 -- sdavid

I do not understand
Why I was ignored
I do not understand
Why I was turned away
I do not understand
Why I was not believed
Why I was thought to be a liar
Just like I do not understand
Why he touched me
And I do not understand
Why he left bruises on my wrists
I do not understand
Why it was me
I do not understand
What I did wrong
And why I am such a bad person
I do not understand
Why I deserve this
But I do understand
That I was so little
And I do understand
That I didn’t understand
I understand
That I don’t understand
How to not be afraid
I understand
That the nightmares will never leave
I understand
That I can never let anyone touch me
I understand
That I will always feel his hands on me
Inside of me
Never leaving me
I understand
I understand
I understand
That I am stained
Blemished
Tainted
And I understand
That it would never have gone so far
If only someone had understood
Me

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