An Untold Future
These fears swarm me
Causing me anxiety
I cannot fight them
But oh, how I want to be special
I want to grow!
But something restricts me
Furthermore into my sorrow
What is it?
I need a change
But I cannot find the strength to fight for it
I need a dream
But my eyes lay wake
Dead in the cold winter nights.
Hoping to find a new light
Down I go
Sinking farther into my fears and anxiety for my future
Will I ever forgive him?
Will I ever be successful in the way I see myself to be?
How can I change the way I act without losing myself?
Will I ever be special...
This new and unlivable chapter leads my soul to a stale place
Not moving
Not trying
Though I say to the ones that try to care
"I'm fine. I'm just chillin"
While in reality I am crying
My fear of the future is eating me from the inside
Tearing each limb piece by piece
Saving no part for a glorious return
I need a change
But gosh darn it! How do I do it?!
Deep down inside
I know what I have to do..
I musn't think as though I am living in the future
I cannot force myself to be like any other
I cannot fear for my success if I am ever to be special in my own eyes
My life is not in the future
It is in the present
I can't worry about these fears for the future
The ones I cannot control
I have to relinquish my paranoid thoughts
And live as if I am alive
Wait
What is..
What is this I feel?
Am I..
Hmm
I am
I am... breathing
For what seems like ages
My fear is gone
Completly gone
It is gone!
But I am not
I am still here
And living without fear
My life is in the present
It has truly begun