Us Against Them
It's not that I was your cure
Or you were my disease
Not that I was saving you
As you were killing me
It's not your illness
Or your dangerous and deadly ways
Not that I'm sick
Unsure how much more I can take
It's not that horrible night you were being stalked in the dark
Or the fact that you choose to call me of all people
Not that I could have helped you, they were watching
Now they're always watching
It's not that we snuck out, when we aren't supposed to talk
Or that we got caught when we got home
Not the way they interrogated us both
Trying to get the real story
It's not that we got stopped by the cops
Or the way we got out of that
Not how we lied when we got home
Determined they shouldn't know
It's not the endless hours we spent together
Or them not knowing how it would end
Not even a little do I regret it,
Though we know they both do
It's not your addictions, and relapses, and all of that
Or the way nobody can help you but yourself
Not how I picked you up off the ground when you couldn't stand up
And helped you back to your room
It's not the nights I cried
Or the day your cried and I held your hand
Not the stories we shared,
Even when we shouldn't have
It's not the time we spent in the canoe
Or when you were reeling in a fish and we almost tipped
Not the sunsets we watched, the dams
We destroyed, least of all the games we played
It's not the hike we took to the falls
Or the visit to the shrine
Not the jokes we made in that church,
As inappropriate as they were
It's not the way you light up any room
Or that you got fired from that stupid job
Not when we did the "ice bucket challenge"
Which you said I enjoyed too much
It's not how we walked all over downtown
Or when we sat on the edge of that cliff
Not how you insisted on helping me back up,
Even though we both knew I could do it
It's not that you don't censor much for me
Or that you tell me things they won't
Not the things we said, or the things we didn't say
It was something else.
It was their fears
And they way They wanted things to be
It was their knowledge
Of what we could be capable of
It was their corrupt thoughts
Not pausing to listen to us
We are who we have become,
And nothing will change that.
Although they may have the power to stop us temporarily
They will never be able to stop us completely.