Validation Death
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United States
28° 30' 50.9796" N, 81° 26' 39.7644" W
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I used to believe death was the best answer
It all started with what they had to say
that led to a heavy loads of pressure that
caused tears, as well as bad eating habits
I would over eat just to feel a certain satisfaction for comfort
That wasnt enough, so I then starved myself for days
my skin color changed
making my equalibrium imbalanced
I could hear screams in my head telling me I was worthless
So i tried my life several times
felt a thrill from taking pills
Gliding my fingers to the back of my throat I felt the pressures exuberance flowing outward
I collapsed
Soulless
As the solace of my solstice was empeached
People look at me, saying "she's beautiful." Amazing, perfectly shaped.
I don't see it. No wait, I Do!
I can feel my beauty as I throw on my clothes. They fit my body with no problems.
But my skin... I become prone to insecurity, yet again!
The uneven tones...
The way my skin gets dry and idek how? or why?
Fault
Faultless like lies of being flawless
I'm perfectly imperfect
Worlddd
I stared at you viewing me
Mirrored
My backs against the wall
Cornered
Crowded
Crowned
Covered... Shame
Self pity
Petty
Patticacked
Cake cake cake cake cake
Cake cake cake cake cake
You put your name on it
Bullet
Shot my esteem
I've been redeemed by the blood of the lamb
Redemption
He died for my sins
Loving me, even in the midst of my ungratefulness
Not accepting that i am blessed and highly favored
My story in new to me, but no HE
Disappointed but not shocked
we carry ourselves through condemnation
He brings conviction
and satan brings annihilation
Jesus came so that we may have life and that more abundantly
For He gave us the comforter
Lead and carried... bled and bloodshot eyes
He cried, "Father, why have though foresaken me?"
I fall to my knees...
I have been selfish, but I call myself a christian
Christian: to be Christlike
I dabbled in hypocrisy
Pharisee
I blasephemed
He gave me a second chance
My savior
Saved me... Reconciliation
The will, the want to do for my father because he loved me
Giving a part of himself to save me
Who do you know can give their life for me or you? and there's still life.
I was willing to take mine
With no return
Just a spirit in torment
Damned!!!
For the Father knows all
For He sees
He cares
And Loves me
Eternity!
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