Video Game
How could I even put down words
When I can't even figure out all the shit that's going through my head
I mean I'm hurt
I'm angry
I'm sad
I'm confused
I wanna burn down these walls
But I build them up to fast
It's like I made it to the final level of a damn video game
And I gotta fight the boss
And I turn and look and see
THE BOSS IS ME
Fuck
My biggest problem is myself
I gotta defeat my insecurities
But I don't know where to start
Because
The boss is me
And so the boss already knows all my
Motherfucking tricks and strategies
So how the hell am I supposed to fucking push through
With all these stressers and depressers
Shoved in front of me me
There is no damn way
I can conquer my damn self
And no
Don't tell me that you fucking understand me
You ain't in my mind
You don't know what it's like to be me
BECAUSE YOU AIN'T ME
So no
You don't know how hard it is to beat this fucking boss
I've been playing this game for almost 18 years
AND I'VE STILL FUCKING LOST
Shit
I wanna fucking quit
I feel like I can't do this
No much longer
What the fuck is the point to even keep going
But I stop
And I breathe
And I think to myself
I've never found a game that I couldn't beat