I made promises

I can’t keep

It’s no sleep till i oversleep

My depression is drowning me

But there is no water and i can breathe

I’m tumbling into waves

And dragging people down with me

I don’t wanna drown lonely

Drawing people into my own mental instability

That is wrong of me

It should be me and only me suffering alone

I’m self sabotaging my potential happiness

Over what? Suicide, cutting, self loathing and depression?

The things that knock me down;

I’m trying to please more than the things that build me up

And hold me afloat amongst the sea

And not drag me down further underneath

What is wrong with me?

I feel defected

Like a burden

Wisps of wind among sullen ashes

Of a dying fire

Painting stories

As shoes stampede over them

Unaware of the sullen ash that is there

I caress my loved ones with warning signs

And like the shoes they look over them as if they

Weren’t there