The monster isn’t under your bed or in your closet anymore
but reidentified as savage thoughts and emotions
monsters, like enemies, fighting an infinite war in your head
a war that turns your world upside down.
Not only turning your world but grabbing your soul and demolishing it
not a peaceful departure but destructive, an insightful hell if you will
misunderstood by many and overlooked by others.
Never an opportunity to empathise the situation of war with a soldier withheld in it.
Gut wrenching, teeth gritting, fierce crying, breathless pain.
thinking of only the worse, not a single way out
but do things really get better in the end or is all just a retold lie
a lie to try and convince you to attempt the plunge in a trap of even more pain
Adrenaline pumping, over thinking, why does god give me this path
everyone always says he has a plan
that he never wants you to get hurt
but hurt has well been reached.
if he wants you to go to heaven
then why does he put you through a never ending hell
sinning your way to the next path
but to me the hell brought, is a sin on his own part.
It is not as easy as everybody says
they don’t understand that you can’t just forget about it and calm down
huh if only it was that easy.
anxiety, panic rattling bones to test the limits.
panic ,attacking your guard which was put down long ago
eventfully eating away all the filling, depression finishing the scraps
not even a struggle to end the character you once were,
quickly finished with one and onto another
The leading monster is my shadow
always glued to me, except at night
when not even the deepest of sleep can take the pain away
but saying i’m falling apart is an understatement
maybe things would be easier if there weren’t a shadow
cause if the object of the shadow no longer exists
then the shadow would not exist
so what better then get rid of that object
this object being skin and bones reeking of depression
is perfumed with a fake smile to temporarily mask the genuinity that once was
so lets play a game
what miracle could make this object disappear
It’s a trick question..nothing