that’s all I'll ever be,
like that triangle not quite completed pointing to someone with a higher number than me.
That’s all I ever say,
apologizing for everything even if I wasn’t in the way.
my head permanently facing the ground,
I scream in my head but I know it won’t make a loud sound
I tried to rise above but I was pushed back towards the dirty floor
My eyes always seem to be wandering to the nearest exit or the closest door
Extended far beyond my means
They said my stages of awkwardness would disappear sometime in my teens.
I blend into the background black and white
too far contrasted and washed out when I’m exposed to the light.
Some days it feels like I’ve been stripped of my desire to fight,
their ignorance and judgement has robbed me of my sight.
I squirm in my skin.
Another scoff, another cough
about my appearance again.
I murmur to myself that I can never win...
since when did staying true to your self become a sin?
I rather be damned and condemned
Than to try to conform and become like them
their cruel comments metastasized through purposely made scars.
Nerves severed and charred,
never managing to conjure a spark.
Everything still remains dark.
They can’t hurt you now
Acceptance lies within yourself
Do not look for their help
Knelt with shame once before
not noticeable, so common
a pushover meant to be ignored.
I implore you to resist,
you are somebody worthy enough to be missed.
Your importance cannot be measure in a simple list.
A dream to change the way you think isn’t just ambitious thinking,
learn how to fight to swim even when you’re sinking.
Cold nights to sun breaking in dayight
will warm your bones soon.
And no longer will you be alone
straining your eyes for answers at the moon.
Change our perspective
Take the bad with the good
Believe in the beauty of things as, you should
You’re more than a number
Not left to wander alone.
In school, these are the things they should have shown you
instead they lead you to believe that they owned you.
But you continued to grew because you knew,
life can get better.
Burdens possess the possiblity to become as light as a feather
when realize that we can face our battles together.