If only you knew what a great sister I wanted to be for you.
If only you knew what Daddy had planned for you.
If only you knew how happy Mom was to have you.
When you left us, we were devastated.
The pain rushed through us like water through a freshly broken dam.
Though the days seemed to drag, time marched on.
As I have grown in height, wisdom, and age
I have seen many more losses, but they all bring me back to your innocent little soul.
As I see my peers with their siblings, young and old,
I wonder what you and I would have been like.
Would we be the unstoppable brother-sister duo, unbothered by all?
Or, would we fall into the stereotype, fighting and hating each other from birth until death?
I have no way of knowing, but I feel like we would have been the indestructible duo.
I say this because I always feel your presence, hovering over me,
Saying, “Sissy, don’t worry. I’m okay. I’m in the Father’s hands.”
There is so much I want to know, so much I want to ask you.
What is God like?
Have you met Grandma?
Have you been watching over Daddy?
I have so many questions, yet there is so little time.
I know I will finally get to meet you someday,
But for now, Baby Brother, just remember I love you.