What Happened?
Location
brightness
laughter in nonsense
no worries or regretfulness
a blink of an eye
three words later
darkness
weeping in shame
sadness in fears
worries and second guesses
in ugliness there's beauty
who cares
brains prevails
since when
there is only one you
that explains it
i'm fine
thoughts race faster
than i can reach my room
with a slam the world is gone
something snaps
and glimmers
no thoughts just coldness
low pain tolerance
so i have to accomandate
choking on a t-shirt
to muffle screams filled with hate
one, two, three slashes
breathe
four, five, six, seven
entering a safe haven
admire my work
blood runs with my thoughts
together
all of a sudden
reality comes crashing
a few frantic screams
and a phone call
ring ring nothing
this is last resort
mother nature gift
proposes an excuse
acetaminophen with ibuprofen
brings a different relief
two handfuls
to one mouthful
ring ring ring
nameless answer
ignore
answer
smiles through the phone
hopes to see tomorrow
one mouthful
to one handful saved for now
only for now