What I Liked
I liked it when you told me I would be your princess on a pedestal
I liked it when you told me life with you was never dull
I liked it when you told me I was perfect
I liked that I was the one you picked
I liked it when you showered me with gifts
I liked how it felt we were moving so swift
I liked,
I liked,
I liked it all
I liked it so much, I saw through all your flaws
But my god, there were so many
Yet I wanted you so badly
Because you wanted me
You became all that I could see
I thought I was living in a dream
And ignored the reality
When I finally saw who you were-
Who you are-
It was impossible to escape your bars
I pushed my own happiness to the fringes
I buried myself in excuses
I became a liar, but only to myself
Too weak to admit I needed help
I destroyed myself trying to love you
Forced myself to become what you valued
But I couldn’t,
I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be
I should have had the sense to flee
But as you keep telling me,
I would never love myself enough to leave
So I stay
And I wait
For what, I don’t know
Until you get bored, I suppose
For now, I’ve discovered what I don’t care for
And I don’t like it when you treat me like décor
I don’t like it when you say you want to be my first,
Grow my thirst,
And then treat me like a curse
I don’t like it when you tell me to, “Get over it, Baby Girl”
I don’t like going down on your black hole
I don’t like when you leave me hanging on the shelf
I don’t like it when you make me hate myself
I don’t like it when I’m with you
So I guess there is nothing else to do
But to leave you