My roses are no longer red and my violets didn't turn out blue.

Maybe because my world is turned up side down due to you.

At this point in time I'm like Drake,give me a shot or two.

A little to much going on. Looking for my next leading pathway on.

Lost my grandad to something called cancer, and the love of my life to another thing call pregnancy.

I'm twisted in all the wrong ways.

Every day I come home to a house where all they do is fight.

Praying almost every night asking God “when are you gone shed some light.”

Sometimes I flick my lighter called faith to see the next street name, but I'm running out of lighter fluid.

Although I'm hurting you'll never see my pain.

The guy I'm into now, real bold.

He lie, lie, and lie until things unfold.

Some people turn to drugs, but me I don't have that.

All I have is a pen and pad.

Sad, but the only choice I have is to get on my hands and knees and talk to the man above.

I promised myself I wouldn't give up even if this mess got too tough.

I need inspiration or aspiration.

Riding through life with no transportation.

I look at some people like better you than me.

You crave too much attention I see.

But me, I'll trade it all in for this pain left within.

Making every decision like I don't have a tomorrow.

I lost my map yours, I need to borrow.

The things I see, I hope no one has to see.

The things I go through I hope this is only for me.

Even if my enemy had to face this , I would give them all the important keys.

All the things I go through I'll never trade in though.

I know it's a blessing cause I'm living in sin, but I know regardless God won't give in.

One nightmare turns into ten.

An individual can never strip me of my happiness nor my pride.

You got a beautiful girl on your arm, but you'd rather mess with the whore on the side.

I must say I respect you though, cause you could've lied.

I can't believe the world, cause if I was down the world wouldn't believe me.

I still never walk with my head down.

Nor will you ever see me frown.

I use to tell guys I love them, just to get me through.

I know that's wrong, but that's my past.

So it's in my rearview.

If you gone blame me for my past that's on you,but at leat respect me cause I own up to everything I do.

I plan to live my life my way.

I know the outside world gone be quick to judge and have something to say.

But the paths I take are as long as a never ending highways.

There is always a diffrent route for if I get lost.

I look in the mirror everyday.

Proud of what stares back.

Every one has problems.

But not everyone knows how to solve them.

I don't blame nobody for the crap I'm going through.

I'm not even mad I'm going through it.

Beause in the end I'm going to learn something and someday I can abuse it.

I deserve the best I know.

But right now God has my budget kind of low.

Although my expectations are a little too high.(sigh)

I still reminisce the day I watched my grandad, my life, die.

No regrets, Im handling it by myself, not knowing what to do cause I'm afraid to cry.

I ask for breaks, but those I never recieve.

God has been too good to me though so,the only thing I can do is believe.

Look at me now, look what he's done for me .

I'm still standing, for the world to see.

So I guess my lifes is not as hard as I thought it would be.