It was 8th grade when I first met you.
I was alone.
Cuts on your arms and demons in my head.
Our worlds collided
And somehow, us two, who were destined to self-destruct, were saved.
It was almost like a movie.
Don’t you remember that time when you made that snarky comment, just barely under your breath?
And for some reason it hit me in just the right spot
I couldn’t breathe
I was laughing despite the joke was shit
And you got that weird look on your face
But quickly it was replaced with a smile
Which promptly left as you started to laugh
We laughed, and laughed, and laughed
Until tears were streaming down our faces and our sides hurt.
I remember that moment clearly
Because for the first time
In a long time
I had felt happy.
And you were the reason why; maybe this is what it means to have a best friend.
Do you remember the time when you first had your heart broken?
And we sat and watched episodes of 'Friends'
And talked about how boys are trash
You asked me what I saw in you,
I told you that I saw a best friend,
But that I also saw my world, my happiness, and my reason to keep breathing.
And you cried;
Maybe this is what it means to have a best friend.
Do you remember the time you got accepted to that college so far away?
And how it had been your dream to study there someday
Do you remember how I had thrown that party for you?
And you cried
Well, I cried too.
Not at the party
Not as you left
But as I sat in my bed, knowing that I was alone again.
Did you ever stop to think about us?
I don’t mean to be selfish
But when you left
You took half my heart with you;
I love you in a language that I don’t fully understand,
In words I haven’t found enough power to lift out of my chest,
You were always at the center of my hurricane,
The calm in my storm.
And right now
What am I supposed to do?!
When you only taught me to survive with you;
You’ve left me drowning.
3 months later
And I get a phone call
It’s your mother
Crying, words slurred
And my heart is racing
You’re in the hospital
Three dead, one surviving
But as I’m about to breathe a sigh of relief
She says you’re critical
And might not make it
So, as I try to hold the tsunami tides in my eyes
I have to ask just one more question,
Is this what it means to have a best friend?