What Once Was Could Change
'You are good and the best' that's what I've been told from time
I doubted the words, thinking that they're nothing but lies
I saw everyone doing great, without even trying
Made me think I could never, leaving a kid pathetically crying
Time flew by, I thought I knew it all
People questioned my thoughts, proved me I was nothing but wrong
I took a step back, feeling that I could never learn
Realized my mistakes, scarred on my hands as if they were bruns
I tried to look back, hoping that I have somewhat changed
But honestly, I could've sworn that I am still the same
'Are you okay? I'm here if you need to talk.'
I'm fine thanks, I just need a long walk
Growing up, I've been put through tough situations
Being optimistic felt like my only obligation
I was tired of the thoughts, take my back to 1st grade
But even from them, I kneew my thoughts are still the same
School is a place for knowledge and learning, the idea seemed nice
I went through the most of it, felt suffocating in a pool of ice
Reality was thrown at my face, I now know the meaning of patience
I can tell my naive and negative self good riddance
I'm eighteen and breathing, I guess I made it this far
My thoughts have been released, little by little in my big jar
Looking back at my childhood, had me unerstand life is hard
What I once was is now dug up in my back yard