Who am I?

I am from the suburbs and

I am unaware of what the city has to offer and how it will shape me

 

I love to make sure people can trust me in a relationship

I love having other people rely on me

 

I am very independent to the point where it can become harmful

I am self-driven

 

I give a lot of myself, my time, and my energy to make others feel comfortable

I give up more than I take in

 

I am now alone and equally surrounded

I am not comfortable with change

 

I hate that society pushes me into one category

I hate that everyone gets to see me while I can only experience my reflection

 

I am not defined by my skin color and

I am not restricted by my race

 

I allow myself to put up a barrier because I want to but

I allow a select few inside because I need to

 

I am a robot

I am programmed to follow a certain path

 

I want to tap into what I am suppressing

I want my subconscious thoughts to be set free

 

I am stuck on a treadmill but

I am safe

 

I see history in the buildings around us, the roads we drive on, and in the sidewalks we walk on

I see everything layered with a new beginning with the first beginning still underneath

 

I am not ready to take risks but

I am ready to open up

 

I know my ancestors are the people that come before me and

I know that the things to come after us will develop from what we leave behind

 

 

I am constantly looking for consistency

I am always looking for the patterns

 

I come from a family of faith, openness, acceptance, and independence

I come from where my ancestors made mistakes to pave the way so we don’t have to

 

I am mature

I am free

 

I believe a huge part of my identity is being kept a secret and I no longer want to be hidden

I believe that every day that I try something new or feel uncomfortable I am changing

 

I am no longer afraid of chaos

I am developing into somebody new

 

I have always liked to keep my emotions to myself and

I have always thought that meant I lacked certain feelings but

 

I am the complete opposite

I am extremely emotional

 

I realize that something with little to no significance can be extremely important to me but

I realize I lack the ability to express these emotions

 

I am afraid to be vulnerable

I am afraid to say I don’t know everything

 

I will build a wall because I am afraid to show weakness but

I will build a ladder so you can climb over

 

I am happy that I expressed my discomfort with our friendship

I am happy that we are much closer

I am happy you were willing to put in the effort

I am happy you changed

 

I think I am ready

 

I am no longer holding back

I am changed 

This poem is about: 
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