First I should start off as to say I am Dom, Doms, Domo, Dominique

Many names there are for people to describe me as unique 

it got scary because some people could describe me better than me

some people wish they were me

WHY is what I asked myself constantly

WHY would someone want to to pursue their lives as someone that they only see

I mean, lets see my year of 2016...

I started off on a high, like the type of high you can only get from something that we all know is illegal

 

The type of high that when you look down you can no longer see anything else beneath you

The type of high that when your in that state you never even bother to look up and talk to God because youre so happy you could die

I was homecoming queen of Cy Lakes High and we all knew why

I WAS goofy, caring, fun, loving and we all knew why

I WAS a volleyball star with a nice body and confidence out of this world and we all knew why

I got accepted to Sam Houston, East Texas Baptist Universtiy, and Blinn within a month

everything was great!!

All of that later came down and no one knew it 

Now, even though they understood why I was positive all the time, it was because of a guy

A guy I loved and cherished for years all of a sudden didnt need my presence like i needed his

Bryson Tiller says things change people change and so do their feelings but i swear this made me feel like ending

My year was all good until he didnt need me

not everyone knows the feeling of being unneeded 

a type of unneeded like fast food because it will damage you

when i got the news that he didnt want me i didnt know what to do

Millions of things crossed my mental

am i pretty?

am i thin enough?

is my butt big enough?

am i not dumb enough?

Is it because im not easy because guys do always what to do IT?

I considered giving him my virginity in hopes of him coming back to me

I never understood why he didnt want me

Lets back track

you remeber that high that i talked about?

It was an all time low

a type of low that you can only see hell when you look down

a type of low that you speak to God everynight to just to sleep

truth is, we never know high we are until we fall and look up at our old selves

this year was the worst and i was in the darkest place i had ever been

every night after practice i drove home, i cry

every morning when i woke up, i cry

every day i came home to my beautiful home, i cry

i didnt eat for two weeks straight

i constantly slept and lost all motivation for school

i lost all motivation for love

i lost all motivation for happiness

i lost all motivation for life

i lost it all

 

what i did gain waas the  best knowledge i could ever gain

i learned so much about the people around me

i learned that looks dont matter

and history doesnt either

if there is one think that i can share from this year

seek God always, trust him, love him, thank him

ALWAYS

and when you are finally happy, protect you and your happy heart always

from this year i will be afraid to love again and always.

my 2016 is wrapped up

my 2016 is over

my 2016 is now shared with you, so learn and take care