This Year

Only two more years to go.

I hope I learn everything I need to know.

Trying to avoid being lazy,

But everything is just getting so crazy.

Getting ready to take the ACT.

Is this the year I’m supposed to find out who I’ll be?

Everything just seems so strange.

I’m tired of seeing things change.

Things are getting worse.

Death, what is this curse?

Being without a mom

Feels like living inside a bomb.

You can never get rest.

Loud noises are hitting at your chest.

They’re keeping you up at night.

Trying to find a way to make things right.

I can’t name one thing that isn’t a blur.

Life isn’t the same without her.

It is difficult trying to get through each holiday.

Now, I know what it feels like to be a lost stray.

She won’t be able to look at me and say, “Look at how much you’ve grown.”

Instead, every time I call, I get the sound of the dial tone.

How am I supposed to make it through this.

Sylvia says, “Stay strong, sis.”

I try

Why?

Because I’m done with asking, “Why?”

Every time I cry,

I think about how I didn’t want to say goodbye.

Maybe everything truly does happen for a reason.

I have to get used to it because it’s going to be like this for the rest of the season.

What am I going to do next?

Go to school and read the text.

I think that’s a good start.

To grow up and be smart.

“Stay in school so you can become someone.”

I’ll stay until I’m done.

As of right now, I applied for a scholarship.

I’m nervous, but I need to get a grip.

So far, it has been a busy school year.

To relieve stress, maybe I’ll go to Navy Pier.

I’ll be getting my driver’s license soon.

I just can’t wait until June.

That’s when all of the stores will have low price tags.

Also, I’ll have all summer to go to Six Flags. (45)