This Is For You Dad

What were you thinking? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?
When you were leaving, WHEN YOU WERE LEAVING
Did it make you feel big, you coward!
Do you care of the relationship that soured?
When you left me behind in those hollow halls,
When you ignored all of me and mom's calls...

This is for you dad, THIS IS FOR YOU DAD
Now I hope you look back on all the times we've had,
I hope you regret leaving and never turning back,
One day you'll come back pleading I'm sorry, it'll be too late for that,
Too late to make up for lost time with a son you said you loved...
But if that was true I wouldn't have been abandoned by you....

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I REALLY THINK OF YOU?
DO YOU WANT TO HEAR I DESPISE EVERYTHING YOU DO?
YET MOM SAYS THAT I'M SO MUCH LIKE YOU,
BUT I HATE YOU THROUGH AND THROUGH,
Mom says I should take you for all you've got,
But I'm never going to give it a shot.......
Cause that would make me no better than you,
Is this what you would've raised me to do?

So do you know of all the damage you caused?
So do you know of all the love that's been lost?
You left behind a broken home, what did I do wrong?
Or was it your sick, twisted plan just to leave us all along?

I hope you know that I wrote this thinking of you,
Hoping you'd hear it and understand it too.... .... .... ....

This is for you dad, THIS IS FOR YOU DAD
Now I hope you look back on all the times we've had,
I hope you regret leaving and never turning back,
One day you'll come back pleading I'm sorry, it'll be too late for that,
Too late to make up for lost time with a son you said you loved...
But if that was true I wouldn't have been abandoned by you....

Understand all of the pain you caused me,
Understand that I missed you everyday,

But because of what did, because of how you left me,
Just know that I will never forgive you, never take your "I'm sorry"
I've got friends who would never leave my side and my real family,
That you will never be a part of, ever again, because you're so worthless to me.........

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