You, You, You and You (All of you)

I try to explain to you But nothing is the same with you Your inconsistent But I'm to blame I inhale you, you blow me out And I'm always short of the experience I try to feel you each and every time but get delirious But nothings ever serious, including my feelings I'm a lay over a joke, a little black girl with little to no hope Crying out loud and you say your here and nothing is a lie you ever tell me I am done with the dream your trying to sell me I want to let you in but I push you out outta fear I wait for you to leave and for the coast to clear Freeing myself no shorts and no losses At least I keep to you all my promises.