a short time in

a short time in hell for an eternity in heaven

is it worth it

thoughts only get deeper as it strikes 11

12 o’clock and my thoughts aren’t getting any better

i tried once and and failed but i already wrote the letter

i look over it again and here’s what it reads:

 

dear esteemed family and colleagues,

i hope your minds isn’t to disturb...ed as it reads

and don’t worry; i already posted this letter on my news feeds

i got tons of inboxes and false threats

that if i do this my soul will be full of pain and regrets

but tell me can people feel regret from a deathbed

ima tell why i did it before you even ask why

and mom please refrain from starting to cry

mom, family, and old friends, they say that good beginnings have no ends

if you would’ve believed me this would’ve never had to end

everyone looked but nobody saw the dark in my eyes when i turned 15

you see my stepdad gave me a special gift for my birthday

he beat me, raped me, and laughed as i lay

covered in lies blood and my fake father’s semen

a virgin flower ripped from its roots by a sick demon

i tried to tell you mom but you were too busy

i bet now you wanna sit down and listen to me

but wait there more icing on the cake

funny as i start to write this my hand starts to shake

I remember when i was 12 and stepdad got so mad, i think it was because i didn’t take out the garbage, i told him that i had

now he was a bit drunk cause he got fired from his job

but he crossed the line when i stepped in the bathtub

i couldn’t even scream before he shoved my head underwater

and i swear as i drowned i saw a picture of my real father

i think it was god that made that knock on the door

guess who, his new girlfriend stopped him,that dirty little whore

Stepdad,remember when i was 9 and you kicked my dog down the stairs

i wonder if you cried when his neck broke and ligaments teared

and when i was 3 and you broke my tricycle

i think you told me that a kid stole it

but you know i never believed you one bit

i saw you slam the car door as you shouted at the world

light my tricycle on fire and laughed till you hurled

your a sick bastard and i hope you had a nice ride

i wish i could be there to watch you as you die

i just hope you know you win, but u made a big mistake fucking with the wrong kid

 

sincerely,6 feet under::*

 

p.s i hope you turned the franks off on top off the stove cause if you dont the curtains above are gonna catch on fire:)

 

p.s.s i also put a lit match near a bottle of gasoline, i know you’re shaking like a turtle out of its shell

but you should’ve know heaven on earth equals an eternity in hell!