01/2010

My dreams trail behind me Like a broken vase Once they were beautiful But now there’s no trace Of what beauty they portrayed Of how sweet we could be Of a life with you by my side Without any misery It wouldn’t even be hard It would all come naturally Two people become one It would happen effortlessly But instead more days pass on And I begin to drift away I ask what happened between us But you have nothing to say You made me feel so special Like I truly mattered Then you hid inside my shadow And made sure my heart was shattered Haggard days and sleepless nights Filled with tears tinged black I wipe away the briny waves But they just keep coming back There’s no way for me to control My oppressive emotions The dark, dreary, all-consuming Threat of depression It lurks in my closet And hides under my bed Waiting for a chance To show its hideous head I try to fend it off But it just keeps coming back I can’t help but miss him And wish I was back on track I feel like a horrible person For jealousy of my best friend But a guy who flirts with two girls Is definitely not a Godsend I wish I was stronger I wish I was prettier I wish I was skinnier I wish I was smarter This list could go on forever So there are only a few Of my many insecurities That explain what I do I miss being the one he calls The one who’s not alone I want to be the one who’s loved But being lost is all I’ve ever known There is no end of what’s begun For loneliness is forever But a single person can right the future And make sure all ties are severed