060506 forever...

Hey love. Its been almost seven years since I last saw your smile. I love you so much, you know that? Best friend, i could tell you anything And I sat here, for a year straight wanting to bring harm to myself Because you weren't there to guide me. You were my rock. You were supposed to tell me how boys only want one thing And meet my first official boyfriend. And help me cope with heartbreak and insecurities... And tell me how beautiful i looked on Prom night, even though you couldn't see not a damn thing. I miss reading to you every night And telling you how my day was And just being around you.. And there's never a day where I don't think about you and cry I miss you so much, you don't understand I don't know why you had to leave me so soon... right when I needed you the most... But i knew that you were suffering for the sake of us And that your happier upstairs with the Lord... I just wish that I could hold you one more time... I want that reassuring hug that everything would be okay. I told myself that I wasn't going to cry but I cant help it... I miss you. How I'd kill to hear your voice again To see you smile To be in your presence... But i can't Its been seven years since I last saw you. My heart hurts, but I know that you're right here beside me. I love you.