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my therapist told me, people are walking on eggshells around me.

what does that mean, it means

they are scared to meet my eye, afraid i would burst

i would burst into every place he touched me,

i would burst into every word you said to me,

i would burst into every pill my mom took,

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i take a deep breath, hoping it would be my last.

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i clench my fist, hoping i draw blood

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everything goes blank, 

i hear white noise

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i forget where i am

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i see where i am

i am in the cage of my own mind

being treated like a cattle about to get slaughter

i am being torture by my own self.

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