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 I don't want to talk about it

Because it's very personal to me

I dont wanna talk about it

Because it hurts me

I dont wanna talk about it

Because I remember it so vividly

I dont wanna talk about it

Because it was unfair

I dont wanna talk about it

Because it feels like its still there

I dont wanna talk about it

Because my closest friend was now a chair

I dont wanna talk about it

Because I have a scar from being there

I dont wanna talk about it

So much drama in one year

I dont wanna talk about it

Because the one person I trusted with so much decided to ruin my last year of a different life when the only bug mistake I made was in my attempt to truly confide in someone my life and thoughts, which they said yes to knowing, but decided over a year later that it was enough.

Because without warning my life took a new path, without warning my dreams of being apart of command were gone

Because everyone near me had no idea what they were doing and had failed previously while I sat there acting ethically and morally to my ideas, and because of this I was never given anything, the people above me saw potential, but it doesnt seem that they saw anything more than a peer when in reality I was more than a peer, I was someone who could see through them and into their minds eventhough they attempted to hide, but from me this si hard, especially when you're so simple, especially when all they think is "how will I impress massar?" every single day. They do what they say, they do what they're told, they follow idea that are far too old, they follow even when they lead, they dont think to make their own path eventhough the one their on is old and fleeting, they dont see because they dont think, they think about "Need to yell at them to not be late to class" not "what the fuck am I doing?" Its something more that they don't see, sure your in that position, but this isnt a part of the ________. This is highschool, this is a place to grow, by a fucking leader and stop standing as they go, stop watching as they listen, stop letting things go, stop saying "Oh well i dont control him" and how about you fucking show him how to act, being in any position above those below you brings one fact, You Have The Chance To Influence Them, and if you don't use it for any good, well then, thats that.